It was mid October, the day falls to dawn as I watched the sun sets. My hands fidget in my pocket, so cold that I recalled it snowing. I never know time, surprisingly, passes by so quickly, as if it is like a camera, when you pushed the button, it’s done.
I raised my head above to see clearly the grayish sky that will soon fade to black. Everything seems to an end. Another memory will just again be treasured. And another will be made by tomorrow. Some memories are forgotten while others don’t. They are just like a lock in which it needs a key to remember. while others have it stored in their brain as if it will automatically pops out when they could recall what they had done.
I, being a witness of this humanity, life is very important. Whether we have a lot of awful memories, and just a few fun times, It is still very important. Bit by bit as we can recall the hardships that can flash into our eyes, Every people, every single step, every thing that had passed on our way is very significant, so much to say that it affects our life as well. Some by luck, some by steps.
I don’t even have the chance to know why when a person dies, at some point of time, people weep for them, moan for them, and can even take their lives just for the dead. When the dead himself is just buried under, doing nothing but rot.
Is it because of respect? Or is it just life? When people die, we weep for them then another year or two, we slowly forget them. Moving forward- is the hardest part for a person to do. I t is not only for the ones whose loved ones passed away, but rather also for those who are heartbroken and hurt that seeing their admirer likes somebody else.
If the people in the earth will be asked, “how can you move forward?”, They will just simply said, not surely, but sincerely, “I don’t know, I guess I should find that out for myself.” Then gently smile.
Jealous for the people who can moved on, I really can’t stand on my both feet and slowly walk to the “door of futurity” and smile like them when I surely needed it.

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Everything was just so fine when my dreams shattered. It was him who shattered it. For I have done nothing but look at him from afar and stare blankly as he dumbly never noticed my feelings up until now.
Eased on how his face always is, whether his sad, happy or even devastated. I can never deduce what his expressions are. Furthermore, if at times our eyes will meet. I can always have this peculiar feeling that we are so far apart that he himself “moved on”. And I, still hanging on his thread, can never know when to cut it. As of my opinion, . I can undoubtedly tell that I am so mesmerized to him that he has no feelings for me at all.
I t hurts to be that such kind of person isn’t it? When at times you’ll be apprehensive in whom he is talking to. Especially if it’s another girl. You might get the wrong idea that she is his girlfriend but in reality they are “just friends”. Mind you but I can always have these eccentric thoughts that she is more than just a friend. But there is no proof that is why it hurts the most when you didn’t even know what the situation is then your going to think of different thoughts that can even burden you more.